surgery for vaginal skin tags and hemmorrhoids

It started as a hematoma(or however it’s spelled I’m very bad at spelling so forgive me now for all of the mistakes but know my heart is in it.) The dr said it would heal fine… Well it didn’t. We have sex very infrequently due to ED and other issues, and my husband’s troubles are enough that there is really no room to rely on him to heal my own emotional baggage around this issue. I do not have that kind of a relationship with my husband. I have heard many people here say how their husbands have helped them to feel better about their bodies.

I am so self conscious that I cannot enjoy oral sex, and it’s actually even worse to be touched down there with fingers, because I feel like you can’t even tell what’s what. But instead, as I said, the whole mess just runs together so that I feel like my anus is right up against the opening to my vagina. And even then, that in itself even wouldn’t be so bad if it were localized to my anus. It’s the excess skin from the hemorrhoids, which no one talks about, that is more of a problem. If it were just the childbirth scar, it wouldn’t be so terrible, as that is a relatively socially acceptable thing to talk about. He also likes the doggy-style position - which gives him the perfect view of it all, which I can hardly stand. My husband is a visual person who like the lights on. The whole mess down there makes me so embarassed. This region of scar tissue is still painful during sex, and I can’t imagine that it feels good to my husband either. Before childbirth it had a soft, silky, smooth texture with folds - not lumps. This is NOT what the inside of my vagina used to feel like. Then just inside the entrance to my vagina, when I insert my finger I feel all this firm, lumpy scar tissue (like pea-to-blueberry sized lumps). My anus itself is a gross collection of skin tags and folds, which blurs together with the extruded fold of excess skin where my perineum once was…and then you arrive at the opening to my vagina. The whole region is just one big mess of disgusting flaps and folds of excess skin and scar tissue.

Now, two years later, my perineum and anus look nothing like they did before. Even six weeks out, at my first follow up appointment with the OBGyn, one of my stitches burst back open when she inserted the speculum and I was back to bleeding again for a couple days. I couldn’t wipe for at least 2-3 weeks I just used that squirt bottle that the hospital provides. The pain afterwards, when the epidural wore off, was quite bad, and I could barely walk to the bathroom for the first two days. I asked him how many stitches I was getting, he said he hadn’t been keeping track. I could feel him inserting his finger into my rectum to stabilize or push forward the back wall of my vagina while he did this. I had an epidural, so I didn’t feel any pain when it happened, but I was aware immediately after delivery when the doctor started stitching me up. I know that a lot of women get hemorrhoids, but no one talks about them, and mine must have been pretty bad, because the nurses made somewhat of a fuss about them (in front of my husband, which was mortifying to me).Īdditionally I tore pretty badly, both inside my vagina and through my perineum, going down towards my anus.

I made him stay in a chair near the head of the bed. I was so embarassed about them that I didn’t want my husband to watch the delivery. Throughout my pregnancy I had hemorrhoids, which only got worse during delivery.

Surgery for vaginal skin tags and hemmorrhoids